Living my spirit…

Today is my 38th birthday. The greatest gift I could receive is one I have recently given to myself—the freedom to live my spirit.

The past six months have been extremely regenerative for me. I have altered my body such that it is still somewhat unrecognizable to me. How long will it take before I visualize myself as the smaller, stronger and more defined woman I am today? What astounds me, is that every time I attempt to answer that question, I respond “It doesn’t matter how I look. It is my spirit that I must recognize.”

Through daily exercises in self-talk, positive thinking, discovery of purpose, and subconscious conversation, I have recently—as recently as a few days ago—found myself in the clearest state of mind and spirit I have ever experienced in my entire life. I feel completely whole and intact. I no longer consume myself with how others respond to my words or actions. Of course, I take care with those whom I choose to surround me, however I accept only positive contributions along my journey, and into my life. I am in control of how I respond to—and create—my environment, and how it affects my spirit.

I choose to live with passion, as far outside the box as possible. I dance in my car. I coast on the grocery cart. I jump in to help an older shopper struggling to find a ripe kiwi and continue to chat with her about avocados, oatmeal, and life in England. I feed my kids leftover pizza and birthday cake for breakfast. I do chin-ups on the branches of our front tree while waiting for Quinn’s school bus. I tell my friends I love them. I ask questions. I connect. I smile. I greet each person with a quiet wish for their happiness. I laugh freely and without reservation. I live my spirit.

Yes, some people think I am crazy, weird, silly… What a shame. Those people are placing limitations on themselves, not allowing their own spirits to shine through. I tell you, being silly is way more fun than living in a box, living without passion, or living outside of my spirit.

Happy Birthday, JoeGirl. I love you and your fulgent spirit. Shine on!